As I continue my journey (there is no destination…LOL) I came across a realization about myself, that has probably taken the better part of 45 years to figure out. Well ok, maybe not that long, cause I’m pretty sure I didn’t truly think about it until much later in life, but you know what I mean….LOL
I have struggled, or maybe pondered would be the better word, as to why everyone looks at food differently. Is it genetic? Is it habit? When did I decide? Did I decide? . I’m really not sure, and frankly it’s probably a much broader subject than I’m willing to tackle, but I did come across a reality for me, I see food differently, and then again, maybe I see the same as others, and that I’m really not so different after all.
My heading……..where’s the rest of it? Yup, where’s the rest of it? That’s what my brain tells my eyes, tells my stomach…….when faced with a single item of food that some consider a full meal! I see a bagel, or a beautiful low fat, low sugar, high protein muffin and my brain says……… that isn’t enough to sustain me! Where’s the rest of it? Other people seem to just be able to live on that why can’t I? (I never said these were sane thoughts….LOL)
I know I’m not the only one who thinks this way, but many don’t decide to advertise it!! LOL My weight issue will forever and ever be a struggle (see above reasoning..LOL) and I’ve accepted this fact. Alot of it has to do with this wonderful little devil that sits on my shoulder saying…….”hey, is that all we are having? Come on……..Really?”. LOL What I finally chosen is to acknowledge the little devil, pat her the head, and turn away. And that when I see a muffin (or anything like it), that people say “these are great for (whatever meal)”, I just don’t see it. I could lie, but that’s not helpful. So this is what I really think…..I see a snack, I see a two bite waste of time. That’s not a meal people. So what’s it good for?? And for a long time I fought that idea. What was wrong with me? The answer is NOTHING.
I am not trying to change this mentality but rather to say it out loud, and acknowledge/own the fact that people ( a.k.a. me) see food and deal with food in different ways, and that the bottom line is that once you have that figured out, it’s just a little easier to deal with.
It’s not a GOLD PASS to just say “hey, it is what it is”……….NO, it’s learning how to go around it, how to stay with what you see, but make it what you need. So I’ve let go of these little muffins, tuna on a cracker, a boiled egg……(Yuck) and decided to fill my life with food and flavor (the good kind….LOL)
I will not go back to old ways. I believe that nearly 4 years after Gastric Bypass I have been open to continuing to know myself, and to fix things that were not working for me in my past, and to implement what does work for me now. I’ve changed the mentality not the vision.
I’m not the muffin for breaky kinda Gal!! And that’s OK!! I only take in about 1 cup of food per meal, I want it to remain satisfying, enjoyable, flavorful, and something to be shared at the dinner table for everyone to enjoy!! I still want to enjoy food. Give me my omelette with tomatoes and green onions, a slice of low fat ham, and a slice of gluten free bread and I’m off to the races……..!! 🙂 **Alright, so it would probably be …….a one egg omelette with 1/2 tomato and some green onion and 1/2 a slice of gluten free bread…LOL**
So shortly, I’ll bring on the recipes for what I consider “real food”. I’ve streamlined a few polish recipes to fit my needs. Begos it is!! Mmmmmm and I love my Risotto, and now I can eat it too!! And of course my beloved Kasha! 🙂 So stay tuned for foods that are enjoyable, healthy, flavorful and allows you to sit with your family and share!! 🙂
Love and Health Always 🙂